I really have been having a hard time writing this every blog every day. How is that for honesty? It’s been four months where I haven’t missed a day. But, as I sit here at my desk today, I really want to quit.
I also know that these last few weeks have been emotionally exhausting. I’ve had lots of breakthroughs thanks to The Artist’s Way and the group of ladies I’ve been going through it with. I feel as if I’ve made huge leap forward. But I also feel like I’m in this in between space where I know what I need to do and I can’t seem to do it. So then comes in the mean voice in my head.
I know what is showing up here is a direct result of how I feel during the day. When I’m tired or mentally exhausted, it’s obviously going to be hard to write. And I don’t want to feel like I’m pushing and forcing these posts. But, at the same time, there is something to be said by riding this wave of “hard” and seeing if I can come out the other side having learned something.
So that’s what I’ll do. Ride the wave.
And these are fresh lilacs I cut from our backyard bush today. The smell. Whoa.
Thanks for reading today’s entry in my daily blog. My goal here is to practice noticing. I try to write about small things and I try to keep it light. Sometimes I write about creativity or healing. And sometimes I write about my dogs or what I cooked for dinner. Writing daily here is a way for me to shine a light back on my life and help me see.
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