I typically say to myself- what would 30 year old Pam thought if she read this? In this case, I would have thought - so much pressure! AND - I AM making good choices! I think I would tell her this. “This isn’t meant to pressure you. This is about your opportunity to create a … Continue reading Creation →

A friend helped me see something yesterday. I thought I had let go of striving for perfection in my life but I haven’t. It’s still there. It just looks different than it used to. ❤️ #onward

I have a lot of thoughts that come to me in the shower and this was one of them. Then I flipped it this way —> I am doing the best I can. If I disappoint you in some way, I can’t control that. I can only control myself. You had expectations of me that … Continue reading Hard truth →

First I learned that there was me, and then there were my thoughts- two separate things. Then I got to know my thoughts. Then I learned a lot of my thoughts weren’t true. Then I learned to think new thoughts that made me feel peace and freedom. Simple and hard at all the same time.

I know someone with anxiety will read this and think to themselves this isn’t possible. I know that because that’s what I would’ve thought. But just as you don’t go from never having run, to running a 5k overnight- I didn’t go from paralyzing anxiety to making myself think good thoughts right away. It takes … Continue reading Imagination →

As a kid, my family never veered from their Christmas traditions. I was feeling bad because since I’ve had my own kids, we’ve done something different every year. Today we decided last minute to go skiing and then have a quiet night home. But I got to thinking about this. Skiing on Christmas Eve is … Continue reading Merry Christmas! →

I post what I need to hear. It’s like me following a social media account and everything I see is just perfect for me in that moment. It’s like I’m tricking my mind. So, these words have come to mean two different things to me lately. FIRST THING- you are not a burden to the … Continue reading Don’t hide →

My experience is that the things you need to learn the most take a while for you to see. My anxiety makes me want to control things and people. I’ve always wished things to be different and people to act differently so that I could get some relief. What I’m learning is that it’s up … Continue reading On feeling okay. →