I think a lot about healing and change and growth. And I think a lot about these last eight or so years that I've been shifting my inner and outer world. I will NEVER forget what my daily internal life was like back then. Some words that come to mind are - suffering, torture, anxious, … Continue reading Behind the Curtain
Driving down our street right now is like being in an old school video game. It's the squirrels. I'm not sure why they are so active this time of year, but man, they will dart right out in front of you so quickly. They run out to the middle of the road, stop, go back … Continue reading Back in the Saddle
Spring is the season that tests your patience. You get a few days of sun and warmth and you're on top of the world. Then, there's rain and cold. And the feeling that It's supposed to be warm out, it's spring! That was today. Dreary and cold and icky. Some time at the farm checking … Continue reading Happy
I don't have much to say today except that I want to remember that this little girl is who I am. Messy, joyful and full of life. Being an adult is overrated. I've been an adult for a while and I'm done with it.Sure, okay, I'll keep going and do what needs to be done. … Continue reading Her
When I sit down to write these posts, I have no idea what is going to come out. Some days I want to write something deep and meaningful and powerful. And it just doesn't happen. That's the weird thing about writing this blog - the more I think about what to write, the harder it … Continue reading Time
Today it rained and rained and rained. I'm in New Hampshire and found out that when it rains and rains and rains here, water comes into our basement. That's good to know. The river is flowing like crazy, so the water is light brown from the stirred up sand. The little sandy spot I planned … Continue reading Rain
It's the tulip time of year and today as I was driving I saw so many sweet and perfect tulips. My favorite were the beds in the Dunkin Donuts drive-thru. I was able to snap a photo. I spent the day updating signage for the farm. They're opening up this weekend for ice cream for … Continue reading Tulips
Yesterday Christian had four cords of wood delivered to the house. We have multiple giant piles of wood on our lawn. He's been prepping the shed area where we pile store it. The old wood has to come out to make room for the new wood to dry out. We didn't burn as much wood … Continue reading Downs and Ups
After a good nights sleep, I woke up with a new perspective. I told myself, Pam, you don't have to do anything you don't want to do. And then I thought about that. I don't have to write a blog post, I don't have to do my morning pages. I don't have to be good. … Continue reading A new day.
I've been thinking about this blog and my patterns with writing for it. I always write at the end of the day. My days start early, between 4 and 5 a.m. and I typically sit down to write at 7:00 p.m. My brain is tired. I've noticed I am more free and open with what … Continue reading Kind lady.