Today I reset. Clean the house. Re-organize the bathrooms. Catch up on laundry. Since the beginning of the year, I’ve been putting more structure into my days and weeks. It has been extremely helpful to me. I’ve been pretty good at making Sunday, the good ol’ day of rest. But not this Sunday. This was a weird, emotionally draining week, ending with a full moon, and my schedule was thrown off.
Wes had a friend over and Charlie chilled after working a long day yesterday. Christian aerated the lawn. I think that’s what you call it? He has this piece of equipment that he drags all around and it digs up little holes all through the lawn so the grass will grow better. I think that’s what it does?
We watched the new Tina Turner documentary. It was awesome. I never knew her story. She was 44 years old when she had her first big solo hit, What’s Love Got to do With It. I’m 44 now.
Yesterday was Henry’s 9th birthday so Gramma baked a cake. We went over her house this evening for cake and ice cream. She gets her second vaccine shot tomorrow morning at CVS.
I’ve been thinking Deep Thoughts with Pam again. Here’s the latest.
When you are a person who is really hard on yourself and expect that you will always do the right thing and be good and that is your identity, you are expecting the impossible. You are expecting that you will not act like the human being you are. And that’s hard enough for you. But what makes it even harder is that you expect other people to be the same way. They aren’t allowed to make mistakes either. And that makes it hard for the people around you too.
Thanks for reading today’s entry in my daily blog. My goal here is to practice noticing. I try to write about small things and I try to keep it light. Sometimes I write about creativity or healing. And sometimes I write about my dogs or what I cooked for dinner. Writing daily here is a way for me to shine a light back on my life and help me see.
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