Writing here each day has allowed me to see the natural waves of my days and weeks and months.
I feel good, I feel like myself, I’m moving forward. And then something happens to disrupt the flow. I don’t feel well or one of the kids had a bad day or it’s a full moon. I go off the rails. All that means is that I get in my head. I start to overthink. And then I get really hard on myself.
Then, I start to remember. Wait a minute, I know what to do to get back on track. I write myself little notes. Notice the smallest thing. Go slow. Eat well. And then the fog starts to lift. Some time goes by. I write more notes. Move your body. Ask for help. Go outside. And then I’m back.
When I’m back, I feel possibility and lightness and hope. I’m able to be present. I’m able to remember why I’m here and what I want to do with my life. I always come back.
The process of coming back is not instant. But it has gotten faster and more reliable over time. I know that because I still remember the time where I couldn’t come back at all. I had no idea there was a place to come back to.
It snowed this morning. It was only for a few minutes. I watched it out my window. Dark rusty red buds on the end of brown gray tree branches with snow falling all around.
Watching Wesley and his friend finding the treasure of left behind easter eggs in the Christmas trees in the field.
Christian taking the time to help my Aunt down the street with a clogged drain.
Notice the smallest thing. Notice. Notice. Notice.
And you’re back.
Thanks for reading today’s entry in my daily blog. My goal here is to practice noticing. I try to write about small things and I try to keep it light. Sometimes I write about creativity or healing. And sometimes I write about my dogs or what I cooked for dinner. Writing daily here is a way for me to shine a light back on my life and help me see.
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2 thoughts on “Notice”
Thank you for sharing Pam, I am going to show this to someone I know who’s struggling at times, I think it will help him know he’s not alone and it helped me to see a way to help him.