Writer. Doodler. Noticer.
When I was eleven years old, my mom attended my seventh grade open house. My English teacher said something like this, “Pam just seems so much more mature than the rest of the kids, so much more put together.” I remember my mom telling me this. Well, I think she told me. Maybe I just … Continue reading Finding What’s True
There was once a little girl. She lived in a house next to the woods. She loved her dogs. She loved to read and listen to music and make things in the quiet of her bedroom. She loved to sit under trees with low hanging branches. She loved laying in the grass and exploring the … Continue reading A true woman
These are crazy times and it’s taken a lot for me to keep level. I write this today because I want to share something. This song. https://youtu.be/J-UK7iNJgNo Headphones. Cozy blanket. Eyes closed. I feel it in my bones. Everything’s gonna be alright. It’s gonna be okay. For me, it’s a straight path to the truth. … Continue reading Everything’s gonna be alright. It’s gonna be okay.
A few months ago I was walking in the woods and a fisher cat crossed the trail about 50 feet ahead of me. I had never seen one in person and it took me a few seconds to run through the possibilities of what I was actually seeing - is that a raccoon? No. Coyote? … Continue reading How to feel alive
It’s been 4 months now since life as we knew it was put on hold or cancelled or modified - school, trips, sports, work. This family need a little something so we headed to the Cape for a night. We spent under two hours at the beach and friends, here is just a sampling of … Continue reading The Power of a Moment
Control has been a way to protect myself. Oh, yes, there are so many ways I try to keep that firm grip. One old standby is the hiding. Hiding works because I don’t even give people a chance to form an unfavorable opinion of me. That’ll teach ‘em. I’ll just not talk. Or create. Or … Continue reading The other voice
I wish I had the language and talent and experience to write something full of beauty. I walk in the woods often. The sights, sounds, smells help me feel calm. I feel like I’m where I’m meant to be. I feel okay. Then I say to myself, I wish I could write about this. I … Continue reading That kind of beauty
Something happened in my son’s life last week. I was angry. I was ready to go full mama bear. It wasn’t fair. I wanted to fix it. I wanted to do something. When I feel this energy come up inside of me, I know I need to do some deep breathing and come back to … Continue reading How not to be a fixer
I sat down to write this with a plan. I wanted to write about power. Power is the theme I always come back to when I’m reflecting on what I’ve learned over the last 7 years. In every moment, we are creating our lives. We are the creators, the powerful creators, of our life on … Continue reading Power
A while back I was talking to a friend about family obligations. How much do we give of ourselves to our families? She was speaking about her father, who she had lost a few years back. She said she never regretted the time she spent helping him and visiting him while he was sick, even … Continue reading 80 Years Old
Pam Moore Gainer 