I went for a nice long walk on a route I haven’t been on in a while. And I remembered how much I like that route. There are abandoned foundations and fireplaces in the woods. I even saw a set of stone steps with nothing at the top.
And as I walked I thought about those steps to nowhere. And I think that is what healing is. One day you decide you’re going to take that first step. And time passes, and you take another step. With each step you get a little higher. When you turn back and look down, you can see how far you come. But you can’t look up and see how far you have to go. It doesn’t work that way. Because they’re steps to nowhere. There is no there, there.
I think when I started looking within, I really had no idea. I knew there had to be a better way. There had to be. Everything looked pretty good on the outside, but on the inside there was struggle. On the inside there was suffering. I think a lot of us go through life trying to ignore what’s going on inside. But what’s going on inside exists even though it can’t be seen. And what happens inside your mind and inside your body, always shows up outside of you eventually. It can’t be contained.
So, you have to take that first step.
And there you are, heading nowhere.
You’re there. You’re healing.
Thanks for reading today’s entry in my daily blog. My goal here is to practice noticing. I try to write about small things and I try to keep it light. Sometimes I write about creativity or healing. And sometimes I write about my dogs or what I cooked for dinner. Writing daily here is a way for me to shine a light back on my life and help me see.
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