Today I reset. Clean the house. Re-organize the bathrooms. Catch up on laundry. Since the beginning of the year, I've been putting more structure into my days and weeks. It has been extremely helpful to me. I've been pretty good at making Sunday, the good ol' day of rest. But not this Sunday. This was … Continue reading Reset
It was 2011 when things were at their worst. I just remember being in survival mode. Christian was the one who said it was time to move. I never would have. I wasn't capable of making a decision like that. When we moved, we got just enough of a jump start. I decided I would … Continue reading Sunday, March 21, 2021
I"m in New Hampshire for a few days by myself. Christian is in Massachusetts with the boys. We have a new old home here in New Hampshire. We found our new old home last fall. It's an in-town New Englander, as they call it, built in 1860. The last few months, we've been having some … Continue reading Friday, March 19, 2021
Lately, after dinner, Charlie asks me in the most teenage boy way possible, "You going to do your daily BLOG?" And I say "Yes, I am." Tonight he added, "What are you gonna write in your daily BLOG?" And I thought about it for a bit, "Well, maybe I'll write about today when I went … Continue reading Tuesday, March 16, 2021
When we grow up in a family, we are groomed for a role. Everyone in the family has a role. We're kids when this happens, so we don't have a choice of what role we're assigned. Nobody is saying, Okay Pam, you are the one who puts yourself last. Now go. It's all unconscious. It's … Continue reading Sunday, March 14, 2021
I spent a couple of hours cleaning this morning. I really don't like cleaning. But, who does, right? I will procrastinate every damn time. But, when it's done, I am so happy. I love the feeling of a clean house. Christian went down to the pond first thing with Mike and cleared the snow off … Continue reading Sunday, January 31, 2021
One of those days where you just feel off. I think it's something in the air. Normally spacey me became twice as spacey. I'm getting better at accepting these days happen. Old Pam would've beat up on herself. Wes is back in school after the long weekend, Charlie still doing school from home. Our town … Continue reading Tuesday, January 19, 2021
How is it that I've woke up, on my own, at 4:00 am exactly two days in a row? I'm serious. How does that happen? There was a sweet pink sunrise this morning when I went outside to bring the trash down to the road. Charlie sat down in the recliner after dinner. Gracie knows … Continue reading Wednesday, January 13, 2021
The news is so bad. It's so very bad. We're witnessing a failure of two branches of our government. We are in the midst of the worst of the pandemic. I don't know who to be more angry with. But I don't let myself get angry. I've seen what anger does. We've lost our way. … Continue reading Monday, January 11, 2021
The house was quiet this morning. Christian got the boys up early and went skiing. Our two littlest next door neighbors (nephews) stopped in. I like to think they come to visit me, but I think it's more for the goodies in the snack drawer. I stayed busy in the kitchen today meal prepping. Tomorrow … Continue reading Sunday, January 3, 2021
